True happiness is…to enjoy the present, without anxious dependence upon the future.

Seneca Quotes (Roman philosopher, mid-1st century AD)

You know they say that the most beautiful songs are written by artists who are being torn apart, from suffering comes infinite creation. I realized today that I have started the year off with very little to blog about and in so many ways that is good because it means that Sydney is doing much better. On the flip side it’s bad because without the angst of every day life things seem pretty comfortable and well just plain boring. Don’t get me wrong I like boring some times and surely in the context of the progress of my daughter it means so much. Silence is golden as they say.

We are going into the fourth day of the transition back to school and I must say that Sydney has surprised me. On Monday she whimpered a bit at the door to the school but she went with the Special Education Resource Teacher and didn’t look back. She had brought a couple things for her friends that I had forgotten about. She wrapped up five little packages and took them with her to distribute during the day. She came home and was absolutely on the top of the world because she gave out her gifts, she played with her friends and there was only one point in the evening where she broke down in tears.

On Tuesday she brought three books for three friends and gave them out. When I asked her what she was hoping would happen when she gave these little gifts away she replied, “I want to give them these things because they are my friends and I want them to know that they are special and I thinkabout them.” Then she discussed who she played with at recess and what they did. All this after a two week break.

Today she told my husband that she wanted to walk into school all by herself. I wasn’t aware of this little tidbit of information and she was fine until just before the bell rang. Then she stiffened up and got quiet but she did kiss me on the cheek and told me I had to go because the teacher was there to help her out. She’s doing so well.

We are looking into goals for this term and how to move forward from here but to be honest I didn’t think we’d be here right now, just yet! A year ago all of this was just a dream. Nevermind a year ago at the beginning of the week on Sunday night when Sydney was asking over and over again how many days until school and begging for “just one more day Mommy” I would have never thought the week would turn out as it has so far. Again, my whole philosophy about jinxing myself; I’m speaking totally about the past three days.

True happiness is about the present and to enjoy every moment.